I know what it feels like to be inside on a beautiful summer
day with not a cloud in the sky and to only look out and imagine all the scenic
places in the world, exciting things to do, things to see, things to explore
and experience. To think that I’ve done so little in comparison to the vastness
of things to experience has me yearning for freedom and adventure. I understand
why The Lion King affects me so profoundly. It has been almost a year since the
movie came out in 3d, September of last year, and when I saw it sometime in
October, and I still think about it. The moment I came home after seeing TLK in
3d with a good friend of mine for the first time since I was kid, I sat on the
couch overwhelmed with a feeling of lack in my life. Something very important
to me was missing in my life that I had experienced as a surrogate while I watched
TLK that night. On a new sticky note that I had opened, the two terms of desire
for adventure with strong, deep relationships struck me. As soon as these two terms
entered my mind, something told me I’ve hit it exactly on the mark. These two
things have eluded me for the vast majority of my life and these were things I desired
for. I didn’t have to think long and hard for these two answers to come to me. As
I sat there, thinking and typing, “Why would the lion king make me feel like
there was a giant hole in my soul, a giant hole in my life?” or something to
the extent of this, the two answers were nailed right into my mind. As soon as I
wrote them down, I felt this feeling of “this is it. This is exactly what I felt
was lacking in my life and during the movie I felt it”. Many months have passed
since I saw TLK three more times after that night for a total of four times, and
after doing my Mythology and Folklore final essay on Propp’s morphology for The
Lion King, having to watch the movie, I always get sad when the movie is
nearing its end. These intense emotions of excitement, adventure, sadness,
despair, love, hope, and power that stimulate me during the movie are gone when
the movie ends. I always feel a little lost after watching the movie, feeling
like I still have to work hard in school and work hard in relationships to earn
these powerful emotions such are adventure and having strong, deep, close, and
open relationships with emotional intimacy. These things have to be worked at. I’ve
heard that the journey is more important that the actual attainment of the goal
but I don’t think it should minimize the importance of attaining the goal
though. I know my goal to have true freedom of time, money, and independence so
I can pursue adventure, excitement, and ever deeper forms of love will take
time. I just hope it’s not too far down the road and that it’s around the
corner.
When I visit my Lion King playlist in my YouTube account, I have
noticed that some videos have been removed. Around the time last year when TLK
came out in 3d, there was a time around then that more videos of the lion king
were being removed and although it has slowed down now, it still angers and
saddens me that YouTube is removing these videos. These videos are a way for me
to experience the parts of the movie with those emotions again with the
comments and view count of other people. It is not just the video that I love
revisiting. It’s the videos with lots of comments and views daily that I like
to visit to share my love for this movie. It feels lonely to watch a video I
love so much and has affected my life with only sparse views. I have grown an
emotional attachment to these videos and their removal hurts me the same way if
you’ve lost something of emotional value to you. I know that YouTube is not for
posting copyrighted material, but damn you YouTube. Damn you.
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